Happy Anniversary, sweetheart..

Actually...
I've forgotten what's the date you sent me that weird text...
a good.. 5 - 6 years ago now.. has it not ?

That night.. I've just driven back from my Perak visit..
thought I could see you before I leave.. but work was always priority for you..
and hence.. I drove back alone...

Deep into the night...
As I lay restin.... *ting tong*..
There came a rather 'unexpected' message from a 'unexpected' sender..

I didn't realize you are chasing after me. You are ok. I'll give you a chance.


That woke me up good..
You've really, really gotten me by surprise...
I mean... chasing after you ? Err.. yes, sort of... but not really...
I mean.. I made it at point blank I wouldn't be disturbing other people's 'property'...
I liked you... that very first day I saw you in the uniform...
I fell for you... but I wasn't ...well... wasn't really 'after you'...
It was like an 'unreachable dream'...
And it came true...

I called every possible person I could... to get advise 3am in the morning
( wasn't at all a very pleasant time to be callin anyone really.. )
And after half an hour of tossin and turnin...
I replied with a .. couldn't be simpler. " Thank you. I'll treasure it. "

Never would I have thought...
A year later... I would be the one eatin my own words...

like what I've told you in my last few messages...
It was really.. love at 'first' sight...
I fell instantenously for you that day....
I thought miracle never happens.. so I kept it purely business...
Yet, guess I wasn't keepin myself too well.. I showed a little more than keen-ness...
And with the help of your buddies.. it wasn't hard to 'notice' afterall.

What I wanted to say here is...

Thank you.. thank you, dear...
For giving me the chance to love you... to treasure you... to be there for you...

I'd trade ANYTHING, and I mean.. ANYTHING to be back where I was with you...
But I guess.. miracle doesn't happen twice..
and... this time.. I'm asking for more than a miracle...
I'm askin God to give you back to me.. alive...
even if not back to me... but alive..
Whoever brings you back to life...
I'd be a vegetarian for the rest of my life...
and I'd follow Him...
( askin for the impossible.. and so I'm giving an seemingly-impossible condition.. )


I loved you...
loved you soooo much, Chia Shao...
I still do.... will do...
sehinggalah aku menghembus nafas terakhir...